Show Shou Shoeux

I have a long week ahead of me.  My husband and I are helping out with the high school’s musical, which is very exciting, but alot of work and time.  Rehearsals every night this week and then two performances this weekend.  I love watching stage shows and taking notes…just something that makes me excited!  I don’t ever share my notes, except with my husband, cause sometimes I just don’t like what directors do, and I write what I would do.  Just bein honest.  haha.  But it helps me with being creative and it’s great to see where it starts and where it ends up!  So that’s what I will be doing for the next week.  Hopefully, this will be a good show!

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Musical colors

I’ve been painting alot.  Even if it’s not onto a canvas, I feel like I’ve been painting alot.  Focused very hard on what’s infront of me, but also having a vision for what it will look like in the end.  Even when I mess up I feel like it can be fixed.  Yesterday when i sat back and looked at my second painting ever, I didn’t like it.  I had focused so hard, and worked on mixing the perfect colors…and yet I still didn’t like it.  So I did something different, without the paints, and risky.  And it worked.  It’s actually the thing that has made the moment in this painting.  I’m so amazed at what God is pulling out of me, and of course it’s nice to have complements too from my husband and friends.  But I think the greatest complement that I get is when I look at it.  There is actually music that I hear!  And it’s all because of the risk.

I believe God wants us to hear him and take risks.  We are where he wants us as long as we are listening, and then …… JUMP!!!  You never know where you’ll land and what music you might hear!

For the Love of it.

There is readjusting that needs to be made For the Love of it.

There is effort that needs to be there For the Love of it.

There are actions that go along with the Love of it.

So….for the Love of God, do something.

Alot to Take.

Life has been interesting lately.  Very broad statement…but just true.  In so many areas there has been a hardship or something new or another something gone.  It will always be this way in every season.  But so many at one time is alot to take.  I could list all of the little things that contribute, and I could list all of the bigger things that people would consider worthy of the “hard times” label.  A place where what’s supposed to be, isn’t, and what’s not supposed to be, is.  Not resorting to priorities, but more moments and situations.

For example:  Am I supposed to be without friends??  Well, I am.  Have I done something wrong?  Or is this the way it’s “supposed” to be?

Almost everyday I come to the conclusion of  “nothing is supposed to be anything”.  We worship, we work hard, and we GO.  Of course I trust God whole heartedly with my life and my everything.  Not worried about where I’m going or where I am.  But more of my surroundings in the mean time. 

Does this even make since to anyone else??

Silver Bells (in public school)

My husband is VERY talented in so many ways!  Today he has assigned to put new words to the Christmas song “Silver Bells” and sing it infront of his school!  It’s HILARIOUS!!!

Here’s my song:
 
Busy Hallways, Going All Ways
Filled with Students Galore
In the air there springs
Chatter of Christmas
Children Coughing, Nurses sobbing
Doing chore after chore
In the teacher’s lounge, this you will hear:
 
10 More Days! 10 More Days!
Christmas Break Starts on the 18th!
10 More Days! 10 More Days!
Soon it will be Christmas Break!
 
All the school staff, chase down riff-raffs
And they go see Coach Green
As the teachers rush home with some freedom
Hear the paper crunch, “Gosh When is lunch?”
In our minds we may scream
All the office staff, joins in to sing
 
10 More Days! 10 More Days!
Christmas Break Starts on the 18th!
10 More Days! 10 More Days!
Soon it will be Christmas Break!

Let me know what you think and I’ll relay the comments!

What we hear, we will repeat.

What we speak will come back to us.

What we write will come to pass.

Most people I know, know the situation with my health lately….it’s been hard.  It still is.  But God is good.  God is foundational.  And God knows what’s happening. 

I have, for the past 3 months, been dealing with swelling in my joints and pain.  Awful, horrible pain.  I waited for a very long time to get into a doctor that refered me to someone else, and God moved SO miraculously there!  I was told I wouldn’t be able to get into this Rheumatologist until possibly November or December, and I was in there the Thursday after the day she refered me!!  Ya know..He’s just AMAZING like that!!  After my first appointment, I was sent to get x-rays and more blood work.  And with several crazy possiblities floating through my brain – “what in the world does she think is wrong with me?” - I was told I could have arthritis or an infection…..    But NO.  According to my blood work and symptoms, there is nothing wrong with me.  The only thing she mentioned was my weight…which we all know is……there.  BUT slowly going away!  God has brought everything back where it started…which is “TRUST ME”. 

This is a very long story cut very short…and sadly still going on.  But God is good!!

I wrote a song a while back, before any of this came on.  And I never realized it until about a week ago, that I wrote it for this season.  God gave a song to me before I needed it.  How amazing

Jesus you’re my Savior
Jesus my Redeemer
Jesus you reign over our hearts

In sorrow and in laughter
Or happy ever after
Jesus you reign over our hearts

There is none like you
There is none like you

Jesus you reign
Jesus you rain
Jesus you reign over our hearts

Jesus you reign
Jesus you rain
Jesus you reign, you rain.

These problems you can handle
When we don’t understand em
How do we try to move without you?

No matter where this goes
Forever I will know
You are all I need

There is none like you
There is none like you

Jesus you reign
Jesus you rain
Jesus you reign over our hearts

Jesus you reign
Jesus you rain
Jesus you reign, you rain.

Josh Tittle.

A good friend of mine died on Tuesday.  He hung out with our group of friends in high school for a while; he was a freshman and we were juniors (“the cooler ones”).  Of course we all thought he was kinda annoying.  heh.  I remember we would all go play football late at night at the high school, right before the sprinklers came on, and he would always get in my space!    He would elbow me in the stomach when I was reaching up to catch the ball, and then tackle me real hard.  Or when we’d go swimming late at night he always got us in trouble because he was too loud and constantly doing canon balls into the pool. 

I got to know him a little after he had “grown up” a little…and he really was a good guy.  But all of my memories of him are when we were younger.  He influenced several people’s lives through his struggle…and somehow, even though it’s been 6 and a half years now since I’ve actually hung out with him, I feel connected.  He died of cancer.   And my grandfather died of cancer almost 3 years ago now.  It’s so difficult to watch them hurt and see what they have to go through.  I think if anyone has had to watch anyone close to them go through the same thing, you understand what I mean when I say I feel “connected”.

I guess if there’s anything I would say to him now it’d be, “Congratulations on some of the biggest canon balls I’ve ever seen, little man”

Give Me More Colors

My husband and I were talking this morning over breakfast about how excited he was about getting his new pedal (he plays guitar)!  After talking about it for a while, he wanted to show me exactly what it did to the sound of his guitar.  Now, first off, my husband has several pedals, and for so long I never understood why he needed so many pedals and even why this one was the one that would “clear up” his sound.  I didn’t understand why he was having to add something to his board in order to make his guitar sound have more clarity.  And then it hit me, that clarity does not mean simplicity.  However, in our lives, simplicity does bring about clarity.  So, I’ve decided to take this a step further and apply it to our lives…

I always put the words simplicity and clarity together because they seem to be the same.  But, if you think about it, simplicity is escentially less of something and clarity is more transparent than a removal of anything.  

Simplicity is the external – the things that we remove in order to get closer and to hear God.  Clarity is internal - what we feel and ARE when we are walking in that light.  We ARE to be transparent/open/sensitive.  In order to be and remain transparent we must want, add and act more of Christ and the characteristics of Christ as who we are.   We can know characteristics and love them, but never live them out.  We can feel love, but not live it.

So, we have to get rid of things in order for things to be simple.  But we have to choose to add Christ and light and everything else in order to be clear and have clarity.  Almost like the color white, and how it’s not blank, it’s actually a combination of every color…

Give us more colors God!!

A Splash of Freshness. (haven’t found that color yet)

My newest hobby is painting.  I have my canvases, my brushes and my paint…and I just GO!  One day I was sitting on the couch praying about this whole health thing going on in my life, and all of a sudden an overwhelming feeling of love, color, expression and pictures hit me.  All these things that were in me, had to get out!!  Now mind you, I have NO experience in actual art….I mean, you should see my pictures I drew the other day of Issa, they’re awful!  But apparently I LOVE to paint.

Another hobby I’m really enjoyings is dancing!  I dance everyday.  Yes, by myself…usually with Issa in my arms so I don’t step on her, and usually to a waltz!  AND its usually in the morning to start my day off awesome!!! 

Most all of my friends are in “The Arts” in some way or another, and I LOVE all of the different areas we cover together!  Singing, bands, painting, church music…etc.  Anyways, my grandma painted when she was younger, so maybe this is something like she had…it just came and went.  BUT, I kinda hope not for me.  It’s too amazingly refreshing!!