My Thoughts Today
Tuesday July.26.11
So, when Chris and I make the drive down to Texas and back (32-35 hours round trip) is when God really presses on us and our personal lives. The time is incredible and truly one of the things I love most about living far away in Georgia. What’s hard is it’s usually something huge, life changing, and so so “gosh I wonder what the heck is gonna happen now.” 
It’s beautiful. This time, he laid going back to school on my heart. Something I’ve been wondering about since I stopped in January to go to work. It was truly a hard decision to make, I felt like I was giving up everything I had ever worked for, and I was. But then again, it was not at all a hard decision to make because it was for the sake of our little family unit. Even though I’ve never known that music/singing is what I want to do for the rest of my life, I knew that it was part of me. I need the singing, I need the music, I need the classical music specifically (along with worship of course).
So, now He might be pulling me in that direction. Not like it was last time, with 12 hours, no time, and loss of any connection between my husband and I – but more about the knowledge of what’s good (music) and all I know is I love it. If I get a piece of paper that says “You have a Master’s Degree”, fine. If not, I’ll write one out for myself and frame it and throw my own little graduation party. Not that a Master’s Degree isn’t valuable to me, but that can not define me, only because I care so much about the people I’m teaching. If I’m teaching them well, getting the knowledge to continue teaching well, and singing, that’s all I care about. You know, I don’t know much about what God has for me or what I want to do with my life, but I do know that I love music and singing. And that’s enough to go back to school I think. I went through a time where I rejected music, everything in my heart suffered. I didn’t know what value it had to me in life, I had just always done it, never actually cared about it. Well, it IS true that you realize the value of what you care about most when you’re in the valley. That was 2 years ago, and now I know what I love.
Praise God for His works! And Praise God for the gifts he’s given me.
Tuesday July.26.11 at 11:36 pm
I know exactly how you feel! Being here is definitely not about what I’ve earned on paper. I got so frustrated with my voice and being fearful of having a singing career that wouldn’t allow me to have a family, that I quit. I still loved music, but singing was done for me unless it was at church. I thought to myself, “If all I did was sing at a church twice a week, I’d be satisfied with that.” And if that’s all God called me to do, I would. “I have learned wherever I am to be content.” (paraphrase of a scripture I can’t remember lol). However, coming back to school and learning more about music and developing my craft has brought a new joy and love for singing and classical music. God restored that love for me that I lost. I have no idea where it’s going to take me, or what He has planned for me to do with it, but I feel so privileged to be a part of music again: I don’t know how I loved without it for 5 years, and I don’t know how I will in the future. That, and following God as He leads me is enough for me. Stay encouraged my dear Danielle! I look forward to seeing where music takes you! : )
<3
Tiara
Tuesday July.26.11 at 11:42 pm
Thanks Tiara! You’re amazing! It’s so nice to know that we can just love music and not be sure where it’ll take us. It’s so reassuring to know I’m not the only one.